I got a new com! I think it’s a really good deal. Actually i’ll find any com a good deal and super fast compared to my old one so i’m just grateful for it. I’m trying to catch up on the lost days of internet now. It sure evolves fast. Gonna catch up on my blog reading right now.

The past few days were all spent in church, for the Radical Conference! It was really inspiring. God’s been such a blessing and support this whole time and i’ve no idea what i would do without Him. It’s this tangible assurance He provides when my world crashed on me, when people disappointed me, when friends fail. Recently, i’ve also seen bouts of hypocrisy in the church, which really shook me. Someone once asked me about it, and i said that no church is perfect, but i guess that was really useless advice. If someone told me that right now, it wouldn’t help a bit. But God helped me through these doubts, and i do feel peace about following Him and influencing my world for Him.

Of course the flipside of spending 3 days at church is that my studies are screwed. I’m supposed to finish mugging math by this week, but only managed to accomplish half of that, partly due to my own fault cos i mugged the wrong topics -.- Next week’s chem week and i really gotta buck up. Organic chem will be my first topic. Dowwwn you go.

Oh i may be staying at a hotel for a couple days the next week cos one of my dad’s business clients canceled their trip so he’s left with a hotel reservation. But i gotta study during that hotel stay argh.

Something really terrifying happened today.

It was during assembly, while the national anthem was blaring, i’m had this really painful stomachache, like a really sharp pain, followed by patches of white appearing in random spots in my vision. And it’s not the small streaks of bright light that cloud your vision after 2.4 or eng peng’s pe lesson, it’s like a few white supernovas that expand to cover your whole field of vision. It’s seriously like going blind, IT WAS FREAKING SCARY.

I tapped weijian on the shoulder and told him i was going toliet but at that point i couldn’t see him at all. I stumbled over to mr yew’s distinctive outline (so glad he’s short for once) to inform him i was going toliet and heard zhongxi saying i look pale, but i really couldn’t see him either. I could hear him clearly though. Then i climbed up the slope (imagine if i really blacked out on the slope, then i would roll all the way down man) and made my way to the toliet. I prayed and my vision cleared up while making my way there, thankfully. Then i settled the stomachache the traditional way and made my way back to class, slowly of course. All this time my face felt like the blood was draining out and i felt really sick.

Wikipedia says, “Surprisingly, even during a heavy grey-out, where the visual system is severely impaired, pilots can still hear, feel, and speak. In other words, complete grey-out and loss of consciousness are separate events.” They’re not kidding, i can personally vouch for this. I could hear every single note of the national anthem, but every single thing appearing WHITE to me. Omg it was terrifying. I’m soo glad i can see again. Seriously thank God for helping me get through this ordeal. :)

Phy spa was quite easy cos the question leaked as usual lol, but my graph was opposite from almost everyone else’s, except nadiah’s. I think i measured from mmin resistance instead crap. Anyway what’s over is over so yeah. Life goes on.

Two shocking results over the past two weeks. NAPFA+PW :O

So yesterday was the NAPFA test and i got a silver! It’s a really awesome miracle straight from God. The previous week i was jumping after sch almost everyday, trying desperately to pass my standing broad jump (220cm). The best i could muster was a 235, but that was just once and the average was a measly 215 or something like that. It’s really amazing that i could jump a 218 ytd and sham bumped it up to 220 to make it a D. So he does have a heart after all. Btw i found out he’s married from fb photos, which only serves to confirm that he DOES have a heart.

The day started off with shuttle run and on my very first station, my shoe came off and i slipped and fell, skinning both knees. So embarrassing -.- So anyway i hobbled over to the PE dept where they gave me this alcohol spray which hurt A LOT. It’s supposed to create this fake skin over the wound but i don’t suppose it works very well on moving joints cos it wore out and turned into a bloody mess. The blood was dripping into my socks yuck. After the whole test i went back for a 2nd spray and it took 3 teachers to attend to me. Oh and they were all female cos sham and the other guy was watching NBA and arguing over kevin garnett. So maybe sham’s heart only activates occasionally or something. Then trigger-happy ms neo gave me the spray for a good 5 secs and sent me out of the PE dept reeling in pain.

My final NAPFA scores were: shuttle run D, situps A, pullups B, SBJ D (!), sit-and-reach C, 2.4 D (missed C by 4 seconds i think) I was expecting to do more pullups but figured it would be better to conserve energy for other stations. Pullups is another amazing miracle cos i did ZERO for last year’s napfa and could only do 2 at best the start of this year. :) I’m still happy with the B la.

On the other hand, i am NOT happy for the B that i got for PW. I was fully expecting an A for the effort my whole grp put in. In fact my whole class got disproportionate results. The sch A-rate was 76% but it was only 44% for my class and ZERO% for my grp. It’s the only subject i ever stayed up all night for (aided by two cans of red bulls) and this is what i get? I’m pretty sure the other members of my class/grp should agree. Super disappointed…

I could rant all day about how my teacher sucks and deserves to be drawn and quartered, then redrawn and requartered, then PERISH IN FIRE, then reincarnated in the form of a PW student and PW teacher simultaneously just so he can teach himself and suffer at his own hands, but i won’t. I’ll find a more healthy, safe and legal alternative to getting revenge for this amalgamation of grief and confusion that you have caused us. Nah i just won’t do it cos i’m not that sort of person.

But i’m still happyyy for my napfa silver. All thanks goes to God. :)

Chinese A lvl results came out today and i got a D overall and a pass for oral! Thank God so much for it! I’m really happy about it. I’ll never have to take another chinese lesson again for the rest of my life. Spoke to Yang Lao Shi, my secondary sch chinese teacher over the phone afterwards to tell her about it, hope she still rmbs me haha.

“Yeah think, let your mind go, let yourself be free. Oh freedom, freedom, freedom, yeah freedom.”

Speaking of freedom, let’s talk about american idol. Time to check in on my fav 6.

I think Siobhan did a totally fantastic job with ‘Think’ that blew me away. She’s super cool. She has a tattoo, she blows glass and her uncle is the bassist of Stryper (i think?), how much cooler can you get! Lily Scott was good too, really good. I thought Michelle was pretty good too, but dropped in standard a bit. But she absolutely deserved to stay, i thought she was one of the better ones there. As usual Bowersox was good, but i’m not throwing my support behind her just yet. She’s got enough supporters anyway. Overall, siobhan and lily were the highlights of the show for me. Then there’s bowersox.

As for the guys’ side, Michael totally stole the show. I didn’t think he had much in him after last week, but that rendition of a James Brown classic proved he deserved his spot in the top 12. Ah but as with crystal (gotta stop calling her bowersox lol), he’s not one of my favourites. Alex Lambert was great too! He’s getting better, i hope he makes it to the end. :) Andrew Garcia was um, just disappointing, to say the least. Hope he scores a better song next week. Oh and casey james. I thought he did pretty well actually, he could handle a rock song, the judges were just being anal lol. Overall, mike and alex were the highlights of the night.

Alright gotta catch survivor now! Missed the earlier timeslot due to late cca dismissal.

This is a day late but something awesome happened yesterday.

My dad finally paid off an age-old loan that he has been trying to settle for a longgg time!

The bank finally agreed to discharge my dad from a loan that he took up seven years ago for a company he started. The events that followed was a dramatic tale of betrayal, despair, redemption and hope which changed my family’s life and in a way, led us back to God. You see, my dad was the guarantor for the loan (never do that btw) so the bank came after him and he ended up having to pay it after a complicated issue happened in the company. But anyway that happened 7 years ago and we’ve been paying the installments ever since.

The consolation (and a very big one) is that the whole mess brought us closer to God, and He has shown us a lot of grace throughout these years as we started to follow Him more faithfully and closely. Ah i’ll post the full story up some other day.

Anyway the point is that the loan’s finally off our hands FOREVER and it’s a big load off my family’s chest(s).