I believe insomnia is the worst feeling in the world. Heartbreak and betrayal probably fall in a pretty close 2nd place.

I had a perfect plan: sleep at 9, wake up at 2, watch world cup at 2.30, mug from 4.30 to 6 then early breakfast. But then i just. couldn’t. SLEEP. I tossed and turned and for some reason could fall asleep. This is the most frustrating feeling ever. The last time i couldn’t sleep was before the SS O levels (haha i still rmb), so i got up and mugged till sch time.

So here i am, mugging quantum and i realised my foundation is really weak. And to think i felt really impressed with myself for finishing a third of the physics syllabus today. Common tests are just next week but for some reason i don’t feel a sense of panic. No… it feels more like… resignation? Like i can try to finish the entire syllabus, but i know i won’t, at least not within a week. So no worries, i’m just gonna try to mug as much as i can and leave the rest to God. It’s like seeing a horde of zombies coming at you in L4D when you have 10 health and 3 dead teammates. You just whack blindly and wait to respawn.

Or is the feeling that everyone else is just as screwed as you? In that case, no worries too, we’ll all go down together? I’m actually okay with that. I’m just unsure whether this relaxed mindset is unfounded and i’m the only one headed towards a disaster without knowing it.

Okay i feel mildly sleepy! Shall nap for an hour then wake up for a double world cup match.